Post op day 4 aka what the hell did I get myself into

Today sucks. It's been 4 days since surgery and up until now I've felt fairly good- but today had not been fun. Pain wise I'm good, a little sore but nothing major that I can't handle. However overall I feel cruddy. All I want to do is sleep, I take a nap and wake up not feeling refreshed, just wanting to sleep more. I'm also really struggling with my diet. I have no desire for food whatsoever and forcing myself to take in liquids had been brutal. Adding to that the fact that today I've been nauseous most of the day doesn't help. Tomorrow I can advance to full liquids which hopefully will be a good thing if the nausea subsides. I keep telling myself to get through one more week then I can be on soft foods which will basically let me eat a more regular diet and I'm thinking that the pain should be completely gone by then. Here's hoping things start to look up soon! 

Post op day 1 aka new beginnings

Today is a new day- and a good one at that! Yesterday sucked. Between the pain/nausea/over sedation I was beginning to wonder what the hell I'd done to my self. The anesthesia made me so incredibly nauseated that nothing seemed to help, and although I expected pain, the severe gas pains under my ribs were no joke! But like I said, today is a new day and in feeling pretty good. My surgeon even commented on how amazed he was that I was doing so well- and to be honest I am too. I still have those awful gas pains but it's so much more tolerable. I've been up and walking the halls nonstop because for one they help with the pains and two I'm bored as hell. 

Tomorrow they will send me for a blue dye test to make sure there is no leaking, and if I pass that then I can start liquids and go home ! 

Once again.... WISH ME LUCK!

'Twas the Night before Surgery....

Well this is it, tomorrow is the big day, and I'm a panicked mess. A million thoughts run through my mind. I wonder if I'm making the right decision, I wonder if I should have just said forget it and try harder to lose it the natural way. I'm afraid of being put under anesthesia for the first time. I wonder if my cold and the fact that my surgeon is being swapped out at the last minute because he is sick too are signs that this shouldn't be done. 

I can think of a million reasons to back out at the last minute- but they are all just excuses. And let's face it, as a fat girl I've become a pro at making excuses when it comes to lifestyle changes. So I'm gonna suck it up and take my before pictures (and a sleeping pill) and know that going through this surgery is the right decision and the first step toward the rest of my life. 

Wish me luck!