Well this is it, tomorrow is the big day, and I'm a panicked mess. A million thoughts run through my mind. I wonder if I'm making the right decision, I wonder if I should have just said forget it and try harder to lose it the natural way. I'm afraid of being put under anesthesia for the first time. I wonder if my cold and the fact that my surgeon is being swapped out at the last minute because he is sick too are signs that this shouldn't be done.
I can think of a million reasons to back out at the last minute- but they are all just excuses. And let's face it, as a fat girl I've become a pro at making excuses when it comes to lifestyle changes. So I'm gonna suck it up and take my before pictures (and a sleeping pill) and know that going through this surgery is the right decision and the first step toward the rest of my life.
Wish me luck!
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